Often times, when I read the Bible, I find myself wishing that I could walk in the shoes of that specific person, whoever it might be at the time.
What would it have been like to be a disciple? To walk with Jesus, to listen to Him speak, to eat meals together? Or what about Paul and the blinding come-to-Jesus moment? I would love to know what Noah felt like, shouldering the continuation of humanity. But lately, I’ve wanted to be Moses. He had this moment, much like Paul, where it was perfectly clear God was speaking to him. The man encountered a bush…on fire and not burning! And then he heard the audible voice of God.
I mean…seriously!?! Can I get a burning bush moment?? Something so obvious I can’t deny it was Him?
Those words came out of my mouth during staff devotion time yesterday morning. And by the end of the day, I was shaking like a leaf, taking my shoes off and standing in awe because I was on holy ground, in His presence, hearing Him speak into my life.
I’m not sure how much I can share at this point. But I’m not sure our lives will ever be the same after yesterday. I still don’t know exactly what He is doing but He’s got our attention and we don’t want to take a single step without Him.
At the beginning of the day I received a message from a friend sending us a link from a contact we had yet to be in touch with. I didn’t get the chance to read it before I headed into work.
Work comes and goes (insert burning bush comment and dialogue here).
Justin gets home and we have a discussion about how God’s vision seems to change. I don’t think the vision changes, rather, it grows. I’ve heard it compared to a seed in some places. But last night I thought of it like a puzzle. I think God gives us the grander vision piece by piece. If He gave it all at once I don’t think our finite minds could handle it. So He gives us a piece or two to start. The funny thing is, we think we have the whole vision and so we rush in without giving it a second thought. And, often times, we have to back track a bit. But as we grow, as our faith grows, as our dependency on Him grows, He gives us a bit more of that vision, piece by piece by piece. And the puzzle fills in a bit more. We finally realize, ‘oh wait, I guess that doesn’t look exactly how I thought.’ I’m not sure we will ever have all of the pieces. He only gives us what we need as we need it. Why? He wants us to live in complete dependence upon Him and how He moves.
The point of that being – sometimes, down the road, the vision doesn’t look like what we originally thought. I think God gets a chuckle out of that.
Within minutes of finishing our dinner conversation, Justin received a message from a couple who we have met with less than a handful of times. A couple we have shared our heart and our vision with. In just a few sentences, they turned our world upside down. In a good way.
It was then I remembered the link from that morning. Uncannily, it was a video dealing with the exact scenario we had just found ourselves in. I started laughing….was this the burning bush I had asked for?
I was on holy ground and I didn’t even know it. God had given us another piece of the puzzle.
I have yet to figure out what exactly He is doing. I keep trying to create these hypothetical futures in a thousand different directions. But I know it is futile. I know whatever He has up His sleeve is bigger than I could ever ask or imagine.
So we wait. And pray. Our devotion tonight was on seeds becoming trees and the years and years it takes for that to happen. We don’t want to rush into what we think is the vision. For all we know, we’ll get another piece of the puzzle tomorrow. And it could change every single assumption we have today. We are praying like it depends on Him and acting like it depends on us. He’ll change the trajectory of our path if He needs to. We just have to keep seeking Him.
(For the beginning of this crazy journey head here.)