When I started this blog it was because God has set a vision before us. And He had done so in big ways, ways that I didn’t want to ever forget. So as we started on our voyage, I wanted to keep track of all that was happening. So much was happening! These unmistakable God moments seemed to be a weekly occurrence. You can catch up by starting here.
I have been writing more recently because we’ve been learning more recently. But, I know I haven’t written an update on where our vision stands. There’s a reason for that. I truly believe that God has us on pause. Though I keep praying, it seems the answers never come. I should clarify that I know the answer isn’t “no.” God has given us a vision to start an intentional community outside of the walls of a church building. Of that I am sure. But, I believe at this point, His answer is “wait.” And that frustrates me. A lot.
Especially when trials and troubles seem to have replaced the God moments we were thriving from!
But then come the moments of conviction. In relatively odd places.
On Facebook while I’m talking to my Mom-in-Law on the couch.
Driving from place to place.
In a work meeting when we’re discussing the opening of a maternity home.
God stops me in my tracks in those moments. I have found myself in tears. Not because I was sad or even overly happy, but because I remembered I was in His presence. I was standing on holy ground.
He has a plan. He has given me a vision. He has given us a vision. And He will bring that vision to pass, so long as we are obedient to His promptings. And, I believe, that as long as we remain in prayer and in His word, we’ll recognize those promptings.
That doesn’t mean the vision will come to pass tomorrow or in the next few years. For Moses, it was 40 years. 40 years!! And that’s just one of many instances I could refer to. I know it will happen. I know that we will be a part of making a difference in the community we are in by starting intentional community.
I *think* I know what that looks like (can you say ‘coffee shop?’). But I also know that as a vision grows, it may start to look a bit different from the original view point. The end goal remains the same. The purpose remains the same. But God is moving. And sometimes that means that I change. Because, after all, change is growth, without change there can be no growth. If a seed remains a seed, it will never become a tree.
And I want to be a tree, a tree that bears fruit.
I want to make a difference for the kingdom. And I won’t settle for anything less. Not now. Not tomorrow. Not 40 years from now.
When I reach those pearly gates, I long to hear the words, “Well done, my good and faithful servant.” And I truly believe the only way those words will be spoken is if I have a whole crowd of people with me. I want to make my Abba Father, my Daddy, proud.
So we march on toward the vision, working diligently along the way.